Wednesday, May 31, 2006

In Such An Ugly World, Something So Beautiful

When someone I care about is hurting, I always feel it is my responsibility to make it all better. And if I fail to make it all better I feel like shit. And I do now.

Because I can’t make it better.
I can’t make it better, and I want to. And I’m very used to getting what I want. I usually work hard for it, and I nearly always get it at the end.
And when someone I love, maybe even more than I love myself, is going through something like, say, a particularly nasty breakup, I go through it with her.

She has no idea I care this much. I don’t think anyone knows I care this much. But I do.
Maybe it’s the “big sister” instinct or whatever. The fact is that I love her so much, and I wish I could reach into her heart and make her stop loving that son of a bitch, but I can’t.
I want to beat him up so bad. He never deserved her.
He never will deserve even her toenail clippings, that scum.
Fuck all "players". That’s right; fuck you.

Don’t they know they’re hurting people? People I love?

He might have ruined the perfect person.
The world will never be the same.

One day he'll wake up and realize his whole life is nothing but a lie.
Then he'll be sorry.
Come to think of it, he's probably sorry already.
She will never forgive him.
And neither will I.

He might have ruined the perfect person.
The world will never be the same.



kay said...

Hay Ubergirl, it will be OK. Nobody can be ruined by their experiences, only made stronger and wiser. She is lucky to have someone who loves her as much as you do. She must be a very special person and in the end she will win through.

Anonymous said...

that fucker should get a foot up his ass

mona said...

why don't you talk to her?

Anonymous said...

your friend is truly blessed to have a companion like you.

I pray that God makes it easier for her... and that the idiot gets punished just the way he deserves.

there should be more of *you* and less of him in this world.

stay strong.

pink_ballerina said...

well we should all stop doing saudi guys..cuz all they are a pain in the ass..and the heart too..

Anonymous said...

Whoa, so melodramatic

Shy said...

Give your friend time, just be there for her, sounds cliché but that’s really all you can do for now...Oh get her some haagan daz ice cream

HEROINE said...

I know this may sound odd, but I believe in Karma. Or maybe I just want to to make myself feel better about certain situations or people within certain situations. So, I hope each get what they deserve, and he certainly will. And on the bright side, I am sure she will too. Just remind her cus people tend to forget.

me said...

She will come out of this stronger and wiser . . . time heals and good friends like you help! Try to get her mind off it, go for a weekend trip or something.

phlagie beoski said...

god, i can so relate...i hate that feeling you get when u cant do anything to stop something bad happen to someone you love...the helplessness because the person u love is blind to someone elses faults...

i had a friend like that...she had a bf who would treat her like shit and force her to do things she didnt want to do...and two years later, they're married. and he still treats her like shit.

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear so Uber. I might've mentioned this on another blog, but I can't understand why do girls put up with assholes? Why do they actually like assholes?

I'm sorry for your friend, and I hope that she feels better, and she will of course. She's lucky enough to have somebody who cares about her. I'm not an expert on break ups or whatever regarding girls. But I used to just go out, surround myself with friends, get tipsy, bitch about every single person in the world, then head back home and sleep. It really works honestly.